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Indefinite DA Break
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I have very little energy, focusing it on work.
Will be back eventually, probably, sorry for not being a good watcher/friend.
Will be back eventually, probably, sorry for not being a good watcher/friend.
I still love you, I just don't have the energy to express it. <3
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Year End Journal! Woo!
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2015, What a year!
Though it's been very stressful to take up so many new responsibilities with work, owning a house and caring for our two crazy dogs ( one of which is a full-energy puppy! ) the efforts have really paid off in all areas.
We will be at even more conventions next year; On the list are USA, France, England and of course here in Sweden too!
Specifics to follow, closer to the actual dates, It's truly exciting though!
Not that this year didn't have it's bad parts, as I mentioned before it has been quite stressful.
And when part of my family cut me out of their lives, for reasons I will never fully understand, I can not deny my heart was broken.
A big part of my year was spent trying to get over the shock and grief of their decision.
However, the good outweighs the bad by a longshot!
In April I got married to the love of my life!
Even though we have been living together for several years,
being able to officially call my best friend "husband" is a wonderful feeling.
And here are some of the many highlights of the year for me;
-I got to meet a childhood idol of mine at C2E2 , Jewel Staite!
-I got to work and draw together with my friends during Nordsken, it was a blast!
-At MCM I got a big hug from one of my greatest geek heroes, Felicia Day!
-Me, Geo and Linda got to see the amazing musical 'Wicked' live in theatre while we were in London!
-Linda and I attended our first Schoolism Workshop in Stockholm.
We got to meet and learn from some big names in the industry ( Like, Louis Gonzales, Mike Yamada, Terryl Whitlatch, Shelly Wan, Jason Seiler and Bobby Chiu ) as well as network and make new friends at the same time! Totally fantastic!
-Geo and I hosted our first party, Halloween themed, in the local mountain cabin. Everyone ate goodies and played games and some guests even stayed over night, it was great!
-I have been able to spend a lot of time together with my grandmother. She doesn't always remember who I am, but she remembers that she loves me and that I love her ( and really, that is the only thing that matters ).
-The day after tomorrow we're expecting some lovely visitors that I have been missing for a long time!
And I intend to give them all mega hugs! 
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I made a youtube thing
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Blerp!
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Memory of my dream
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I had a really unsettling dream just now.
2045, I’m still happily married, I’ve published several books, Geo and I have a musically talanted adult son.
Problem is, I have no memories of the past 30 years.
My husband and our son do not get along and I have no clue why.
The “kid” is very distant and though not impolite he doesn’t really listen when I talk.
Plus he is a stranger to me, I don’t have any memories of his childhood, I don’t know his favorite food or film. I donot know when he took his first steps or what his first word was.
My husband and our son do not get along and I have no clue why.
The “kid” is very distant and though not impolite he doesn’t really listen when I talk.
Plus he is a stranger to me, I don’t have any memories of his childhood, I don’t know his favorite food or film. I donot know when he took his first steps or what his first word was.
I know I love him, but that is all, I can’t even recall his name now.
I tried to tell my husband and he was just sighing and acting like he heard me worry about this same thing hundreds of times.
“It will come back to you, here are some photos…”
I tried to pretend to remember things when neighbours and family talked with me, by nodding and smiling, but it was difficult and exhausting.
And I felt so guilty for forgetting so many incredlibly important things and relationships.
And I felt so guilty for forgetting so many incredlibly important things and relationships.
I cried in secret. I prayed it was all a dream.
And it was, and I woke up in my own time in my current life.
Alzheimers runs in my family, it is one of my greatest fears.
And this nightmare felt so real that a part of me wonders if maybe in some dimension it is all really happening, and me being awake here and now is really only part of my delusion… A strange memory, half true, nostalgic, half dream.
Mmmkay, going back to bed. It’s 2:38 am.
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